Plus ca change, plus c’est la meme chose
Found this entry and this entry today. I know, there’s a common theme, but for some reason I was really curious to see what I had written. I can barely remember a day when Miss Dina was not a part of my life, for example, and I laughed HARD at my whole “I think quitting smoking is really going to stick this time!” diatribe. Jesus. Am I really so predictable?
In any case, I was surprised to see how many things are still true. I still want to go to grad school. I am one step further along that whole “giving up soda” path. (Woo hoo seltzer water!) I still want to do a cleanse. It’s still REALLY exciting to get new glasses. And, strange as this may sound, Bill can still occasionally say or do the perfect thing. (Thanks for the call yesterday, by the way. It was nice to hear your voice.) It was kind of comforting to realize that over the last three and a half years, at least a few things have remained constant. I might crave change, but sometimes it’s nice to have a break.
I know. Tripped me out just a little bit.
yknow
i was hanging out with nibblet last night
and i was telling her stories from a different era
about THE BREAKUP and misplaced sexual frustration cancer sticks and being “intellectually attractive” and mikey and cankles and i realized
i’m not that guy anymore
i’m not the protagonist of any of those stories
but i knew him well once
and it’s really ok that we’re not friends anymore
Oh my god, cankles. Hadn’t thought of that in a long time. I still love that guy, nenie. He may not be a part of my life at the moment but he is a huge part of who I became.
no
i love him too
he’s incredibly important to me
but it’s ok that we don’t hang out
yknow?
word.
wow
that first post is a lifetime away, isn’t it?
ok
they both are
dag, yo
different world
yet it feels oddly familiar, doesn’t it?