and i’m learning from falling, learning from falling

Several brief notes tonight, and then I’m going to bed, since I’ve had two days of twelve-hour-long tech in a row, and my candle no longer wants to burn at both ends.

ahem.

I believe in every human being’s inalienable right to dye peacefully in their own home, surrounded by people of their choosing. It’s a personal and private thing and should probably stay that way. Nobody really wants to see you like that, and they certainly don’t want to smell it.

Saying things like “I swear to God, this has never happened before” doesn’t really help.

Having unfortunate things happen in the middle of the night when you are way too exhausted to think clearly can blow them so horribly out of proportion as to nearly cause a full-blown panic attack. A complete sense of social paranoia can often follow, even later when you’ve gotten some sleep and should theoretically know better.

There is no feeling on earth worse than suspecting that you have - even in some small, non-life-threatening way - betrayed the trust of someone you care about.

I am a damn good Sound Op.

Go out and buy this cd, right now. No, seriously. I am obsessed with it.

Pasta made with Spelt is good.

Sea Salt Soy Crisps are SO FREAKING ADDICTIVE. OH MY GOD.

When you’re on headset during a show, fart humor is always funny.

Men in drag are also funny, sometimes.

Blackberries picked in your own back yard are nice.

Sitting alone at at the 4th and Union bus stop for 45 minutes late on a Saturday night is not fun. Neither is being inadvertently stood up the next day, even if you understand why it happened and you didn’t actually have any concrete plans. Even when you’re not really allowed to care, because of the situation. Especially when you’re not really allowed to care. Especially when you kind of do.

Giving backrubs is almost as fun as getting them. It’s extra-nice when the person you’re giving them to starts making funny noises. Animal noises are good.

It’s lucky that Stephen can catch, because some of us are fond of John DeS’s head.

Toe Knee is a really nice guy.

If you meet someone who reminds you a lot of someone you know and love (but who is far away), it’s easy to feel very comfortable around them right away. When you act like you’re comfortable around them, they often will become really comfortable with you pretty quickly. Then, you can joke around like old friends without actually having to spend the time necessary to become old friends.

When you spend a lot of time up on tall ladders, you get bruises on your shins from where you were leaning on the next rung up so that you could leeeeeeeean over to unscrew and rotate and re-tighten and fuzz and gel and tophat and barndoor.

If you eat nothing but carbohydrates all day, you WILL BE TIRED no matter how much coffee you drink.

Looking through old pictures is sometimes very hard, and not always in a good way.

Sometimes, just when you think things are going really well, a general shitstorm of bad karma pops up. Ignoring it doesn’t seem to help. Any helpful suggestions would be greatly suggested.

It’s nice to have dogs to snuggle with, especially when you are bemoaning your lack of an actual human being to snuggle with.

Cat claws were not intended to be used as doggie labret piercings.

The scent of mothballs makes me extremely physically ill, and after smelling them I can taste them in the back of my nose for nearly a week afterward.

My basement smells like moth balls.

Dogs like alarm clocks that make nature sounds. Especially the “stream” one that makes babbling brook noises and has birds chirping. Maybe it makes them feel wild.

Nowadays, it doesn’t take the sound of birds to make me feel wild. I’m starting to suspect that this might be a problem.

Tristam and Gillian and Jeff and I took a Cosmo quiz tonight. I am a “Change-Craving Chick”. Cosmo warned me of the dangers of being someone who is constantly changing - apparently I am in danger of missing out on opportunities because I’m too impatient to wait for things to get better. If I don’t like something, I just change to something else without giving it a chance to get better. (The more you know.) I thought this was rather telling.